Fear of success is usually stronger then the failure parts in my life.
I am not afraid to fail. Matter of fact, I feel I’ve gotten pretty good at it, hehehehehehe.eee
I try to lie to myself and say that “Failure is not a bad thing, it just proof that you tried. Now get up and try again.”
Okay, so it is not so much a lie. It is a pep-talk. One I really do believe in. Most days.
But it is a fear I struggle with a lot.

And Anne the bidding war sounds great and exciting… think we can get them to out-bid each other for Kristen’s idea?

And Kristen… if failure is your issue and you seem not to have a problem getting things done for others (okay, that is a mommy’s constant curse from where I am sitting [me too]) try writing it under a pen name and then you can hide behind that to get it done. Hire yourself.

And before I look too preachy, I do have a story I am sitting on. Writing it is painful, because it is a true story. Here’s the catch… okay there are a couple of catches: 1- I know this book could be written and help others… even if it helps one person it would all be worth the writing; 2- I know how to promote work, I would and do want this book to be a success, but it will bring to light some weakness my children’s mother possessed in her/their past, I don’t want to embarrass them nor make them mentally be drug through that again. Yet I know this manuscript will help others. I have been told so by some in the know. Some who would purchase it so they could use it as a tool of encouragement. So now what?

I have written the first chapter.
And while I have down time at work, like now, I hand write some additional chapters. Although I am not sure where exactly it will go – Chapter 5 or 15… It was a very difficult memory to look at, remember and analyze. But it is written. I think Shannon Michaels will be authoring this book. Even though there will be a note from the author on the last page – a truism prolog of sorts.
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I think my biggest fear is that I can write a great proposal but when I have to turn it into a book, I won’t be able to pull it off. Don’t get me wrong, I can do it for other people, but what if I don’t have enough to say? What if I have a lot to say and it sucks? It’s a lot less scary to tell someone else’s story than to tell your own, I think.